Just a diversion…
Hmm…in the past week, I turned 29. Upon turning 29, I learned the reason my dad is sick, which is weighing heavy on my heart. As we speak he is in the ER, and so what am I doing? I am blogging to calm my nerves. I also learned that my child thinks I am mean, that time does heal wounds, but not quickly, and that the one day I have been dreading for the past six months came and went, and I survived. Its been a year. We have lived in Fredericksburg for a year. Completely unreal. It still feels like yesterday that I could call my two best friends up and say “Addison is driving me crazy. What are you doing, we need to get out of the house” and guarantee that two hours and a cup of coffee later, my life was happy again, because they knew how I felt. There are a lot of days where I feel like no one can possibly understand where I am coming from. There are days where I feel like to a certain extent everyone does. Sometimes- okay, a lot of the time- I dont understand how I got here, and sometimes I think I think too much, and maybe I just dont need to know. I need to focus on NOW.
So…today on he radio the DJ on the news said “Michael Jackson’s estate…” And Add pipes in “Mommy! Oh No! Michael Jackson escaped!” She also told me she doesnt like dinner and wants to eat lunch. She said she cant eat dinner because her teeth are broken. She sure does know how to work the system!
Disney world was magical and amazing, and there are so many things I want to write, but keep getting side tracked. We went to characters breakfast at Chef Mickey, and got to meet Mickey and the gang. We were super duper lucky and happened to get a reservation at Cinderellas castle to have breakfast with the princesses! While it was the highlight of the trip for us (especially for Grammy who lucked out with this really yummy stuffed french toast), I think that the entire trip was super memorable. I have a few Addieisms written down somewhere that I will have to plug in there later, but magical pretty much sums up the entire trip. From the minute we stepped off the plane until the minute we left, my daughter was in complete awe of everything she saw. From mastering the monorail to spotting characters from 50 miles away, she totally embraced being a tourist. We bought the binoculars, we took the pictures, we made the loud “WOW look at that!” exclamations! We had a great time. In case you were wondering, that little girl loves to prove me wrong, and she did awesome on the plane. On the ride there it was so turbulent that we werent allowed to remove our seatbelts at all, and all my child had to say about that was “Weeeeee!”
Okay. The stress just hit my brain and fried it. I am tired. I have no idea what this blog is about. I am pretty sure if I try to read it tomorrow I am going to say “oh wow. really Lis?” but I dont care. All about the living in the now, right!? haha.
Because Dad is being admitted to the hospital as we speak I will leave with this very sweet moment that Addison and I shared last week. On my birthday, my mom called me to tell me that my dads test results came back, and she explained them to me. Addison overheard me talking about him being sick, and she started crying. “I am sad because Grandpa is sick. I dont want him to be sick, I love him SO much!” My heart melted. This little girl who loves to jump in puddles to make my blood boil, and who defies me and runs away and laughs her head off was really, really upset about someone she loved being sick, and understood that she loves him and it hurts when someone else is hurting. My baby is getting so big…and has such a big heart. Reminds me that despite everything we put her through in the swapping and the fighting and the stress of it all…she is genuine and true and still only sees the good in the people she loves. It takes a village…and this village loves her so much and it shows.
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